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01 May 2011 @ 10:29 pm
April was for starting anew...  
Spring may be a tentative thing in the North but, looking back on it, April was a month of changes and starting anew.

March ended with my getting the embroidery for my little coif and the spurt of creative energy that gave me. Since then, I have been churning out little projects right and left. I'm a little stalled out on a project that is giving me some trouble and taking longer than I'd anticipated, but I needed a break. I'll probably finish up a few more half-done projects, then attack that one in earnest. I've also been patterning people left and right and making deliveries of massive quantities of linen, so hopefully I am instilling the spring-like creative energy in others as well.

Work-related creative energy was pretty much limited to the formulary, but considering that it went through the initial phase relatively easily and that the first round of rejections was limited, I am counting it a major win. I'll struggle with it for the rest of the spring and into the summer, but it's nice to start off with a clean, tight, well-ordered formulary I can be damn proud of... at least as proud as one can be of an Excel document. :P

On the save-the-earth hippie front, I recommitted myself to styrofoam reduction efforts and other granola-head goals. I am being more careful to either finish my portions at a restaurant or use reusable containers/foil I carry in the car with me. (It makes the waitress look at one oddly, but what the hell do I care?) I have been more conscientious about buying recycled/renewable/minimal packaging materials. 

I began taking more steps to be more proactive about my health. I fell off the exercise bandwagon in March and made myself resume it in earnest in April. I still need to work back up to the 3.5 visits/week I was managing in January, but spring and creative pursuits have been distracting me. We may revise the goal to 3 visits/week. I have signed up for a CSA share... and for the veggie share, not just the cheese share that I initially ordered. I've been cutting down on the soda I drink at work - I'm still a carbonation addict, but I've found that if I just don't bring it to the office, I'm too damn cheap to spend $2 in the vending machine. While I've converted mostly to tea and juices at work, I need to start having that leak over to home as well and on the road, where I drink caffeine like there's no tomorrow. :p

Timmy's death in early April hit me hard and I'm still processing that... It has spawned all sorts on interesting thought processes, not all of them morbid, but some of them, I suppose. I'm working on drawing up a will - I'd been thinking that was something for later years, but Tim was not that old. For that matter, neither was my Uncle Mike when he passed in February. So, from disposition of my library to custody of my birdie-boys, the Things that matter to me have been provided with guardians. I'm also thinking about general life goals. There's things I want to do and see in my lifetime and I'm thinking more about how to make those things happen. I'm working to make more time for me and the things I find personally valuable. I am reading more things solely for pleasure and spending time just having a good time, not worried about immediate productivity.

It's also helped me toward my goal of being a little more direct - not that I was exactly a shrinking violet before - but the last few years I've been trying to be better about saying and doing the things that should be said and done and not waiting for "tomorrow" or "later" to roll around. I've had a few conversations I probably otherwise would not have undertaken a few years ago. Most were just socially/professionally awkward or otherwise the sort of thing that I usually would have let go, but instead addressed directly. A few, however, were potentially emotional minefields. Some worked out well, some just adequately, some not quite as I had imagined, but none of them ended up being devastating, even when I fully expected them to be so. (Although, that is a lesson in of itself - error-checking to ensure that message-sent matches message-received is highly useful. *facepalm* The answer you get really depends on the question they hear.) One never quite knows how things will turn out, but being the one to take the initiative seems to be working in my favor... OK, well, at least more of the time than if I'd just relied on hoping, hinting, asking nicely, and being patient would have. I've gotten seriously smooshed too, but the odds are in favor of direct discussion and the odds are getting better as I go... Anyway, a few of such difficult conversations in April have me feeling optimistic - I've not gotten myself fired, I may have convinced the bigwigs at work to take a problem seriously, I've not gotten arrested by the feds, I may have a new student to add to the flock, and I can hope that some serious risk-taking will pay off big in the end. Who knows? I My program could still be eliminated, the big bosses may just have been humoring me, I might be detained as a deranged Part D heretic, I might be too big of a meanie to learn from, and I might end up having made foolish, dangerous decisions... But there's only one way to find out, eh?
Current Mood: contemplativecontemplative
birdkillerladybirdkiller on May 2nd, 2011 03:48 am (UTC)

I've been a bad hippie lately but I was happy to see that The Olive Garden has switched to greener packaging.

eithni: greeneithni on May 2nd, 2011 04:31 am (UTC)
Really, carrying tupperwear-type things is a godsend - in addition to the hippie benefits, food does not dry out in the fridge or spill in the car. Besides, you really should transfer it to a different container before you reheat and the glass pyrexs with rubber lids are awesome for that.
reneekytokorpireneekytokorpi on May 5th, 2011 07:20 pm (UTC)
Birdie. :C

You make a good point in will writing. Are you using any resources in particular?

I'm glad things seem to be going better!
eithni: darkladyeithni on May 9th, 2011 05:21 am (UTC)
I got forms from the law library - I have yet to look at them though.