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15 March 2013 @ 11:37 am
Black holes  
Ugh. One of those days where it feels like all my efforts and work disappear down sucking black holes, leaving no lasting effect. I've got so much to do, but so little give-a-fuck with which to do it. :/ Blarg. Motivational fail. Worse, backup systems to kickstart motivation seem to be offline too... 
Current Mood: apatheticapathetic
stitchwhich on March 16th, 2013 03:03 am (UTC)
Oh dear. Maybe it is the season change?
eithni: coldeithni on March 16th, 2013 05:47 am (UTC)
Or lack thereof. :P I am SO DONE with winter. Granted, it was rain this morning, not more snow, but still, cold-and-wet is not that much better than cold-and-snow. Throw in some ambivalent news, last minute cancellations, and a to-do list as long as my arm and staying in bed all day sounded like an AWESOME plan. Still, I did manage to kick my own ass and at least got SOME things done, if not everything one could have hoped for.
Ysoltysolt on March 24th, 2013 09:25 pm (UTC)
Days like that are hard. I imagine they must be *extra* hard for you - it appears to me that you have pretty high expectations for yourself in terms of productivity. I see you as a VERY productive person.

{As an aside - spell check wanted 'expectations' to be "expect ions." Are you expecting ions? :) }</p>

In case a bit of Someone Else's Perspective might help:
I've had to redefine 'productive' for myself. It's not been easy, but now (speaking just for myself) I consider time spent cocooning to be productive. It's necessary for me, whether its fatigue-based or mood-based or whatever. It's still a struggle for me to be OK with it, but hey... it's all a process.

Sorry. I wish I could help.

eithni: excellenteithni on March 25th, 2013 02:37 am (UTC)
Yeah, personal productivity expectations are something I struggle with. There's always so much I NEED to do and always even more that I WANT to do, it is hard for me to relax. I'm getting better at it though - at least in fits and starts. Friday-Saturday were crazy-busy and hella productive, so today I relaxed and was social and read. I'm still not good at blending efficient and relaxing, but we are working at it!

Like you said, time cocooning is indeed important, and I need to make that a priority too! It is good to get other perspectives on life and to remember that I *usually* am productive, even if I'm not 120% of the time. :)